I’ve woken up sick again
with a lump in my throat
because all my dreams were of you

My energy leaks out
a door I’ve opened wide
for you

I am easily distracted
ungrounded
You pull me inexorably on

I flow to you
like a river
and find no ocean

Each moment escapes
like I’ve left something
undone

I linger happily near you
and notice the emptiness
when you’re gone

And I wake with a lump
sticking in my throat
it’s time to turn the knob
and push the door shut.

But if you try it
You will find it
unlocked